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Jeremy

Copyright, Jeremy

I have a large collection of poetry I have written. Some positive, some sad. I have SI’ed for 3 years. I started with an eating disorder then to more violent things this past year ie cutting, hitting. I have somewhat successfully stopped. I still want to but for some reason I haven’t. Let me know what you think of the poems. I appreciate any comments.

Once last thing. Some people when they found out I SI decided to believe it was a homicidal tendency. This nasty rumor and lie plagues me as I am an introverted personality. I just thought that might be a good thing to note in your FAQ.

Thanks for your site. I enjoyed it very much. I wish I didn’t look at the pictures. Very triggery. I will be ok though.

My First SI Poem

Cut once, cut twice
try to make whats wrong seem right
a problem you cannot fix
a cry for help no one hears
is now a badge of shame you see
for it is a permament mark on me
a scar as permament as the pain
once a sadness now a shame
endless sorrow, tradjety
somebody protect me, from me
make the hurt go away
I want to see another day

Cutters Prayer

Oh dear Lord I’ve done it again
disgraced myself on an alter of sin
I did not want to make this mark
but I want these feelings to depart
I should have turned to you
for you are always there for me
I wish I did not feel this way
So I come to you for help today
Give me the strength dear Lord to say
I have the strength to go another day
for with these words you’ve given me
Your light and strength will thrive with me

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This last poem is about my suicide attempt.

Look at me Im on three
Shut the door
count to four
five, six, seven, getting closer to heaven
ten, eleven, twelve, I need help
Feel no pain
Lose all shame
Pray it goes quick
Life is shit

 

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