Tracy
I’m not entirely sure what to write. Everybody on the site seemed to have something to say. The pictures of my arms were self-inflicted second degree burns from holding a knife over flame and pressing it to the skin. The picture of my hand is from clenching a knife in my hand. I’ve struggled with self mutilation for as long as I can remember. It’s only been really bad for 5 or six years. I’ve never gotten help for it. But this year my parents found out that I used to do it, but they don’t know I still struggle with it. I’ve gotten it under control as of late though. I used to use medical lancets, used for diabetes. I found it inflicts much more pain to burn though, and I was not able to stop for a while. I also used to struggle with beating, I almost broke my wrist 2 years ago with a rock, and last year I gave myself a concussion with a phone after a fight with my then significant other. My story isn’t a happy one. Maybe it’ll be of some use to someone else.
Update
At the time I posted last I was nowhere near as cutting oriented as I’ve become over the past year. I’m really trying to stop and it is a comfort to see other people share my problem because it’s so hard to stop and there are people out there who feel my pain. Earlier this year my best friend pulled me aside and looked into my eyes and said “tracy… please… please don’t do this anymore.” And after that I began doing really, really well up until recently. But I’m trying really hard again and hopefully it might end up OK. I also started extenguishing cigarettes on myself shortly after my first post on here.
Lastly I wanted to add that anyone who needs someone to talk to can e-mail me at sugarycandiedkittenforsale@yahoo.com. I’d be more than happy to try my hardest to help anyone I can.
