Soul Reaver
I found your website via a Yahoo Group I am a member of. They had it listed, but attempted to remove the link to the site because of the pictures.
I am a cutter, I have been doing it for 2+ years now and I’m currently 27. My ex-boyfriend introduced me into the act of Self Injury, as he would do it in front of me with my knives. At this time I was suffering from several mental disorders (and still currently am) and my mind grabbed at it instantly as a release action. I have been doing it ever since.
At one time I was cutting every day; at work, out in public, at home, and even at friend’s houses. I managed to cover both arms (upper and lower) and both thighs with a fine interlacing network of scars. Sometime last year, I was hospitalized once for a set of cuts, which the doctor did not treat properly and they scarred even worse than most of them (first two pictures show the scars – bright pink ones on my upper arm). I now have twin pentagrams (tattoos) covering the scars on my thighs.
Within the last year, I have managed to control myself better, I only break down and cut once, maybe twice a month. All the cuts within this period have been less damaging, more of scratches than full blown cuts. Most rarely leave scars anymore. I recently cut myself and find the urge not backing down with the amount of damage done. I fear things may be escalating back up to their previous levels.
The included pictures are mostly of my old scars.
The last picture is my last attempt, a half-bracelet of fine scratches/cuts (30+ scratch/cuts). None of them were deep, but bled profusely. I use a special ‘breathable skin colored’ bandages to cover/hide them from my current boyfriend. The bandage allows them to heal faster and leave less visible scars.
