Sarah241847
My name is Sarah. I am seventeen and I have been self injuring since I was twelve. I cut, burn, bite my lips, and do anything to hurt myself. I wish I could stop, but it’s so very hard, it’s truly an addiction. So anyone can IM me on Yahoo!:
sarah241847, AIM:imnotaperfectper, MSN:sarah_harrison8. I would love to talk. Anyone who is thinking about cutting or self injury period, I encourage you not to because it’s a terrible habit.Update: I have gone two months without cutting. Then I slipped today. I cannot help it, it’s so addictive, and it’s so very hard to quit. No one in my family believes that it’s not for attention, I for some reason like to see blood. I hate myself and my life, for me there is no other alternative. I’m losing friends and family. My mother has already kicked me out once, and all because I cut. I feel my life is all over. I know I must be setting terrible examples for my two sisters and my brother (one sister is eight, the other one is one year old and my brother is nine). My grandmother also recently passed away. At first I used to scratch myself, now I cut. Each time it’s like I want more and more blood, but I don’t really cut deep, but now each time I cut, I cut longer and a little harder. I burn occasionally, and almost every day bite my lips just for the blood. I just cannot stop. Never start.
Update: I had quit for three weeks then I slipped yet again. I’m really trying to quit. It’s so hard. Here’s more SI pics from tonight and yesterday. I just hate life…
Update: A poem I wrote called ‘Cutting’:
I hate myself, I wanna die, I cannot count the tears I’ve cried.
The years I’ve spent, cutting away, comes to nothing but a big pain,
But still I cut more and more… No longer in my life, am I satisfied with crying? No. I need the blood and pain. The want comes and goes, but no one but us really know, how cutting can be, the blood the pain, the scars. It is our drug, our only hope, our last resort.http://www.freewebs.com/cuts_4_life/
Update: Here is a pic I made on Paint. I just want to let you know that I send you these pictures becuase yes I want to stop and I want others to see how hard it is to quit so they may never start and maybe encourage some to quit themselves. So I keep sending pics when I have moods and I wanna cut myself. I know I am not good at drawing but I love to draw so that’s why sometimes as an alternative, I try to draw unless it is too bad. Then I usually end up hurting myself. But I’m still trying so that’s always good.
Update: I was recently hospitalized for cutting, drinking and depression. I went November 2., 2005, and got out yesterday, November 6., 2005. I still have fate, but I’m battling self injury, depression, psychosis, and an eating disorder every day. And I will say my eating disorder is way better and cutting is getting better. And remember, never give up.
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