Kitty
My name is Kitty. I’m 18 and I’ve been cutting for about a year. I’m bipolar and became very depressed when my best friend of 5 years and I began to drift apart. I felt so empty. I wouldn’t allow myself to be comforted. When I was younger, I used to punch myself and slam my head into walls when I was angry or sad. I also used to smack myself with objects to purposely make bruises. I started out cutting with a dull pocket knife. At first I just made little scratches. Lately, however, I’ve begun to cut very deep, trying to bleed as much as possible. Bleeding makes me feel better. It’s the only thing I’ve tried that actually makes me forget all my problems. However, now the cutting is my problem and I am going to try to stop. Not just for me, but for all my friends that I have to lie to or break promises to every time I cut.
Update
This is me again *sigh* this quitting thing is going slowly. Even though I haven’t quit, I have cut a lot less frequently, and the cuts aren’t as serious. I’ve been focusing on scratches rather than deep gouges. This site has helped me some. I now see how damaging my cuts are and how I don’t want to end up like some of the worse ones on here.
