Kat
I am Kat, I’m a 17 year old girl who has been cutting since I was 13. I come from a good family and I am supposed to be the perfect daughter but I get so scared sometimes and the only thing that makes me feel better is cutting. I wish now that I had turned to friends ad family for support rather than starting this very addictive habit and I beg anyone who is thinking about cutting, do not do it! It’s not glamorous or fun. It’s ugly scars you’re going to have to try to hide for the rest of your life. It’s brief fixes, followed by feeling even worse than you did before. I managed be SI-free for more than two years but when I hit a stressful time in my life, I turned right back to cutting. I am still trying desperately to stop but my family doesn’t know I ever started back, so I can’t confide in them. (They were very horrified when they found out in the first place. I didn’t want them to, but they saw the scars. I could never tell them that I’m doing it again. They thought I was only doing it for attention which was so wrong. I tried so hard to hide the scars because I was so ashamed.) My family doesn’t believe in counseling either, so I can never seek professional help. If I beat this, it will have to be by myself, with God’s help. I know He loves me despite my cutting, but it’s hard to really believe that sometimes.
