Carrie
My name is Carrie. I am 15, and I have been self-harming for like 5 months now. I don’t do it to follow everyone else, it’s a way out for me. Now I’m trying to stop harming myself, but it’s extremely hard to stop.
At first I started out with light scratches and nothing too deep. I usually used a safety pin. Then I moved on to razors and I started using those to cut, and one day I cut really deep and I felt like passing out and I was cutting 5 or 6 times in short intervals every day. I knew I needed to stop. That’s kinda where I am today, I try not to but it gets harder and harder each day. Anyone out there that thinks it’s cool, or has friends that do it and they want to start to be like them, don’t. It is so hard to stop, and you shouldn’t do it without a good reason.
Here are just a few of my pics. They are on my shoulder then, that is the object used, taken off of a shaving razor.
Update
Well, I finally asked for help, I knew I couldn’t stop alone, and yeah I am on my way to gettting it. My mom today set up an appointment with the St. Lukes mental behavioral facility (just a nice way to say mental hospital) and yeah I went in, and I didn’t know what to expect, I was really nervous and then this adult patient came out in a gown or whatever and he was on the meds there obviously and yeah he was talking about his suicide to like his family or whoever, and I was like omfg I wanna go home, I wanna cut, I don’t wanna be here, so yeah bottom line, I got the exam done or whatever and the dude guy told me I should try a counselor and like Prozac and other drugs and if my cutting doesn’t get less frequent then I’ll be hospitalized. So yeah, I am at the point now where I shall be getting help, but it fucking sucks that not one person really listens to what you have to say and truly gets it, but I hope everyone out there is dealing as well with it as I am trying to.
Here are some more pics… As you can see, I got pretty desperate and used stupid things that didn’t cut me…
