Black Halo
I would just like to share some of my pictures of SI. I am not trying to compare my markings with anyone else’s here – I believe everyone’s pain is valid, and no one should be put down about it. I’d just like to discourage anyone who currently doesn’t SI. Although it seems like it gets rid of pain, it only worsens it in the end. It’s a painful experience for anyone involved with it and the ones around them. It only hurts people. Most importantly, yourself.
I am almost fifteen years old and I have SI’ed since I was thirteen. I have suffered from Major Depressive Disorder and Insomnia. I have also experienced a form of sexual abuse… I started out with hitting and scratching – it has now elevated to cutting. I regret the day I ever started. It’s extremely hard to stop, as you all know. I have been in therapy, and I am also on daily medication. It is hard, but I have found my peace is religion – it helps a lot.
If any of you ever need to talk, feel free to IM me on AIM: xXBlackxHaloXx
Update: It’s been nearly six months since the last picture I’ve posted here was put up. Needless to say, I’ve improved in so many ways. I still struggle with dark thoughts and I feel just as triggered as you all do — but I’m slowly getting better, and I can feel it. It’s almost inevitable that one will slip the first few times at trying — and I have. Most anyone you will talk to has. But I’m so proud of myself for doing well. Now all I have are scars. This last picture depicts the storm of SI I once went through. But I’ve, at last, come out of the storm shelter and see sunshine through the clouds. I hope and pray you all can see the beauty after the storm.
