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Renee

My Story

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My name is Renee and I’m fourteen years old. I started cutting last year in 8th grade when I was about thirteen. I still do. Not often. I used to cut on my arms but I was found out by my best friend Caleb and he told the principal at my school who told my mom. My mom is not one of those loving mothers so she was going to commit me. She didn’t and I didn’t cut for a while Then I felt the urge again. I was missing my boyfriend terribly because we didn’t talk too much. I loved him and so I started to cut my shoulder because it was not as obvious. I hope people can see that cutting is not as good as it is cut out to be but we all make mistakes. Sadly I am still making mine.

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I’m 13 and have cut since I was 11… If anyone wants anyone else to talk to I’m always here. I never get tired of listening to people. But as of recently I think I need someone to talk to. My parents found out and I’ve been sent to counselling and put on Zoloft. It doesn’t help and I reverted back to cutting. This time not on my wrist but on my stomach and foot. I’m being sent to a psychiactric ward for a week and might not be able to go back to my school because my parents feel that people are going to talk about me and make fun of me for cutting so I might be sent to some high school in another town. (I’m not even in highschool. My parents are so out of it they’re trying to get me skipped a grade so I can be a freshman in some other school.) Ugh, life is a terrible thing to have. But as I said I’m always here to talk so e-mail me.

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I have been cutting myself with a razor blade. I cut on my inner thighs and on my hips. I guess I am what they call the “typical” person that suffers from SI (self-injury). I am a 15 year old female, was raped when I was 12 and suffer from major depression. When I cut myself it is like a release, I feel like I can handle life again. I don’t feel pain when I cut myself, which is normal for most people that have SI. When I told my shrink about what I did she seemed very upset and had no idea what to do. I think she is kind of scared and just grossed out by me now. Wow, what a great shrink. Oh well, at least I am trying to get help. To all of the other people that have SI, just remember you are not insane, you are just trying to cope. I know that most people cannot imagine why someone would cut themselves to cope, but hey, it works for us. Also, never forget that you are not the only one, and that you will be OK.

 

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