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Ariel

Cuts

Copyright Ariel

I have been cutting for about two years now. I just have to say i hate people who cut for show. A lot of people from my old school would cut themselves just for show and me and my other friend are like why should they do that. When we’re here doing it for real reasons. I just hate it. You shouldn’t even be doing things like that. I shouldn’t be. If you want attention just jump for joy or something. I have been cutting for very personal issues. I’ve been hospitalised three times. (My friends don’t know.) And I’ve needed stitches two times. I think if you’re young you should love yourself. I screwed that part up a long time ago. Unfortunately I can never feel the same about myself. Don’t let it happen to you.

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Copyright Ariel

I didn’t know what to do when my friend started cutting so I thought that after she got bad enough that she had to go to a mental hospital. I thought it was my fault so I started cutting too. And when I finally found out that it wasn’t my fault it was too late… so I thought. I ended up stopping because of my friends support but I probably would be dead right now if I didn’t have them. I used to cut my upper arm and make it so painful that I couldnt sleep at night. The worst thing about all of this is that I am only twelve and I am already getting into all of this. I know that I am young and have the rest of my life to worry about things but I didn’t realise that until people had to show me. I started cutting when I was in 6th grade and have been doing it on and off for about a year. I thought that my life was pointless until my best friends and even members of my family started trying to commit suicide and I saw how much it hurt people and I decided I didn’t want to put people in as much pain as people, especially me, have put me in.

 

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