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Sez
Copyright, Anonymous
my name is gonna be sez for this 1. 'i feel so alone, i hate myself and i want to die' Kurt Cobain, 1967-1994.
this all started when i lost my best mate and now i feel like theres only 1 person who understands me. myself. I have attempted suicide a number of times but i refuse to go to the doctors. i have three personalities, one at college, on at home and one when i am with my best mates.
my best mate got in a real panic when i sent him a txt msg saying that i had slit my wrists and i was sorry. we now think its because i saw my ex, who cheated on me wi my best mate at the time. we had been dating for a while and i was really in love with him and he repayed all my life with sleeping with my then best mate. i feel like crap here and college is hard and i feel like i cant eat but i comfort eat till i'm sick.
i need to see a doctor i know but i'm scared he'll tell my mom and i'll get found out. this is my only outlet!
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i never wanted to do this,
you made me,
the bullies,
the pain,
my mom is cradling my and rocking
we sit and wait
to see if i'm gonna die
the consultant says i'm clear
i smile for my mom
i dont want to
i HAD cancer and was looking forward to dying soon.
now my only outlet is the pills?
no i cant
so grab my dads desert eagle,
put it in my mouth.
wait, wait,
cant do it.
so i hold it to my head.
pull the trigger and i'm finally gone!