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Hi. My gramma is not so good, so I hope you understand what I'm writing :o)
I'm a 17 year old girl. I started cutting my self when I was 14. My father used to drink alot. It gave me a strange feeling inside my self. Before I knew it, I was sitting there cutting my, because I couldn't stand this feeling/pain! My mom said she was gonna put me in a mental hospital if i didn't stop. All I wanted was her to understand it, and help me through it. She was always mad at me, and I just got worse. A few months went by, and I stopped, 'cause I didn't want my mom to tell my docter. 1½ year later I went to a continuation school. Everything was great, but then I started cutting my self all over again... I started thinking about my past. Not just the cutting, but also all the sleeping around, mariuhana, and drinking. I did those things to forget about my mom and dad. My teacher found out and told my parents. I was forced to go to a docter I hate once a week. All I wanted was a therapist! Someone who could understand where I was coming from!
I havn't been cutting my self for a little less than a year now. My life is perfect! But a few week ago I started again. This time I don't know why... I went to see my docter, and she told me I was sexually abused when I was about 4-5 years old. I can't remember it, but I know who the guy who abused me is. It's my cusins grandfather. She told me that the abuse was the reason why I always was cutting my self. Finally I got a therapist, and I'm getting help. i'm thinking about telling the police about it, but it's kinda hard, 'cause I live in a very very small town in the Faroe Islands, and no-one will belive my story. My therapist puts me in hypnosis, so I can get my memorie back. I think someone should help us "cutters" in the Faroe Islands! We have no-one to turn to...
I hope you "cutters" out there are trying to get some help! good luck!
Love, Highclass