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It all started about a year or two ago. My brother was very suicidal and all the fights that him and my parents would have. I would sit in my room, listening to the stupid shit my mom was bitching at him for. He could do nothing right, it was all my parents fault. I followed in his footsteps, only i am different in one way. To relieve my stress, i like to cut myself. To all of you that do it, you know how well it relieves stress and after yo udo it, you feel so relieved. I feel no pain, i recently cut my arm that i had to get stitches. Pain, none, excitement of blood, High. I love the sight of blood. I go to a pyshciatrists for it but he doesnt do shit for me. I like to cut myself even when im not depressed. Speaking of, i suffer from Depression. But ive tried everything from music, writing, driving, running, punching, you name it, i tried it. Nothing works like the cuts. I dont like to cut myself deep because im too lazy to have to go to the ER. i just like the little scratches, enought to bleed and run down your arm, but not deep enough for stitches. The scars are is what most excites me, i think they look cool. To me, i feel as it shows how tough you are? weird, i guess, its just how i feel. But for any of you fellow cutters out there, if you need someone to talk to, Email me, ill give you my AIM screen name, because i know i really need to talk to people sometimes. If you do email me, make the Subject, I cut myself too, therefore i wont delete it thinking its chain mail bullshit. Thanks for reading.