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Gema
Copyright, Gema,
Hi im Gema, dob 24/06/81, I try my best not to self injure, but hey, I've been doing this now for 9 years, I dont think I'll ever be able to stop. Its a part of everyday life to me now. When I tell people they usually try to be empathetic, but its blatently obvious that they are confused, sickened even! I dont always know why I SI sometimes its a distraction from the pain I'm really feeling? It lets me experience physical pain, and relieve the mental pain (does that make sense?) Ok its like when i bleed/bruise/burn whatever! its like all the bad shite from my life is oozzing out.
Not many people know about my self harm, I am a great hider! However out of those who do know (mother included) some (her again) choose to ignore it... its like if they pretend its not there it will go away.... Well thats just not true, it will always be with me, its a bigger part of my life than ever.
When I cut I need to be alone I have my supplies you know... scissors, kitchen knife, razor blades, glass all wrapped up in a security blanket, I keep it in a box by my bed. I get it out, and sit in the corner of my room and slowly harm, I feel great when i do this.
Thanx for listening.
Gema xx