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Lisa
Copyright, Lisa
from as far back as i can remember i self harmed. when i was young i got angrey so i punched myself hard. somtimes it would bruse sometimes it wouldnt. i also scratched myself. i carried on hitting and scratching myself until i was 14.
when i was 14 i cut myself with scissors then a pen knife and now razors. when i do it i feel so better its the only time my smile is not fake.
on the outside i act like i couldnt be happier except for i few people no1 knows how much pain im in.
everyday after school i cut myself on my arm it used to be 5 times a night then 10 , 15, 25, now its about 30 - 40 times a day. i do it after school and b4 i go 2 bed.
i havnt cut myself 4 two weeks so now i puch myself. the reason i have temporary stoped is because im going on holiday and although my mum knows she thinks i have stoped.
thinking of stopping self harm all together scares the hell out of me but never stopping also scares the hell out of me.