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Kathrana
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I don't really remember much from when I started with SI. I only remember I was 13, I would hit myself with power cords or belts even wire hangers. I do remember I stopped for a while then at 17 my dad's third exwife started some shit with me. I went upstairs and I cut my arm up. My history teacher saw it and recommended me to go downstairs to the nurses office he called ahead. They wanted to send me to the hospital but I walked out of the nurses office. I proceeded to find one of the teachers in the school I trusted she recommended the drug counselor. He called home I don't think my dad got the call because later that day his wife was telling me things like I did it wrong and how much better things would be if i would kill myself. Well I proceeded about 4 yrs using blades on and off. When I reached 22 I had an emotional crisis and couldn't get a hold of a blade I saw a lighter and for whatever reason I decided to burn myself. I used the lighter but my preference was for the blade. At 23 my dad and his fourth wife found out I was self injuring the sad part is I don't think they care. I am now 24 I managed to stop for 5 months till last week I decided I needed to hurt again. Right now I don't know if I am ever going to be able to stop. I can only hope maybe one day I will be able to because I know if I don't this is going to be what kills me.