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My Story
Copyright, Midnight Saphire
my story sounds like probably many others. when i was in 6th grade(about 11 or 12) i went through a time of dark thoughts and angry feelings. im sure everyone has gone through a rebellous time in his/her life. my gothic feeling had spiraled out of control. by the time the 2nd makring period went by i had been getting into self mutilation. all my feelings of stupipity and sadness had all come back and that night i went into my room and slit my wrist. i didn't get too far. but the bleeding stopped. that night i put a gauz wrap on it and told my parents that i had cut it on my locker. the next day i thought i could tell my friends but it all got out and finally to my parents. they took me home and i was out of school for a week. when i came back i thought i had changed but i still felt the same. weeks later it all came rushing back. i went to school carring a knife on me hoping to kill myself in the bathroom. during class one of my frineds went inot my bag looking for a tampon and foung the knif. she told the teacher and i got suspended for 2 weeks. my parends took me home and found i had written my will/ they got really scared and took me to the psyciatric ward at the hospital. i spent the night there. four years later (now 15) i am now on anitdepressants and feeling better. i still have thoes thoughts about doing it but i talk to my family and friends. if you are someone who reads this and wants to talk to me about suicide then feel free to e-mail me or my screen name is onetuphlilcookie. take care and diying is not the answer