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is life worth it?
Posted by Erryn on Mon Apr 15 01:17:32 2002 (#1925)

i am wondering is life worth all these hassles?

Re: is life worth it?
Posted by eleanor on Mon Apr 15 10:57:31 2002 (#1927)

I don't know. Life may not be worth it but you definitely are and your kids need their brilliant mum! Just think about that when you feel down. Love you! El x x x

Re: is life worth it?
Posted by She on Mon Apr 15 12:18:12 2002 (#1928)

Im not sure life seams to be a long stream of problems at the moment and i dont know if thats worth it but you people on here are definatly worth it so dont give up yet things have got to start to get beter caus they cant get any worse.
Love you all loads
She~she

Re: is life worth it?
Posted by Maggie on Mon Apr 15 13:15:39 2002 (#1929)

As long as there is life, there is hope.
I guess hope is what keeps us all going... the possibility of happiness and a better life.

I guess your question will be answered when you see your kids go to their first prom, when you see them graduate from high-school, when they walk down the wedding aisle.
I'm sure those precious moments to come will be worth every bit of suffering you may endure at the moment.

Re: is life worth it?
Posted by stranger in the night on Mon Apr 15 13:48:58 2002 (#1933)

i dont know? i guess so. you have children and to know that it is you who has brought them into this world makes life worth it because i am sure that your children are lovely and they will be proud to have you as a mum!

When words can't explain it all
Posted by Maggie on Mon Apr 15 14:29:40 2002 (#1934)

I invited my high-school French teacher to my 21st birthday party a few weeks ago, and she bought me the most amazing gold necklace with my birthstone in it.
The pendant is shaped like a tear, and it reminds me of the horrible times that she helped me through, while I was at school.
I rang her tonight to thank her for the present, and she still had a genuine interest in me. She asked me about everything... including my mental health. She asked all the right questions, had all the right responses, and validated everything I said... like she always did.
She spent 2.5 hours on the phone with me tonight, which proves that those years ago, when she spent hours with me, wasn't just because she felt duty-bound as my teacher.
She had amazing insight into character... she read me like a book, and I can't believe she remembers everything I said from 4-7 years ago.

Tonight I told her about my SI. She was very interested in the disorder...concerned that some of her current students may also be hiding this problem. She wanted to learn about it.
She told me that if I ever take SI too far, and I am too scared to call for help..that I can call her instead... and she wont tell anybody else about it.

I want to tell her how much her concern means to me, how she saved my life so many times when I was young. That I clung to every word she said,and still do. That she is immensely wise for a 34 year old.
I have thought about her almost everyday for the last 4 years that I left school, and felt guilty for not telling her how grateful I am.
She is not good at taking compliments, so I want to write her a letter. How can I express in words something that touches the deepest part of my heart, without sounding scary?
I love her so much, like a friend, mother, guardian angel.
She has two young children of her own, and she is so busy. I don't know why she bothers with me...
She gave me her email address and told me to phone her again. I wont contact her again for a long time though, I feel bad for taking up her time. I'd hate for her to find me a burden.
I'm just gonna write her a letter, but no words will ever explain what she meant/means to me. I just hope she realises what an incredible person she is.

Re: When words can't explain it all
Posted by eleanor on Mon Apr 15 15:20:00 2002 (#1937)

If you write to her what you have just told us then she will understand how you feel. What you said is expressed beautifully and doesn't sound scary at all. I would love to get a letter like that showing that I have touched somebodies life in such a special way, and I'm sure she will too. Love always, eleanor x x

Re: When words can't explain it all
Posted by stranger in the night on Mon Apr 15 16:05:28 2002 (#1942)

i can relate to your story! only the person that has been iwth me through the tough times was not my teacher but a mother with children of her own all the same and it felt as though i was taking up her time and it still does. i wrote her a letter to say thankyou for everything nad i dont think it scared her? i think, hope, that it touched her? i can relate to all your feelings of..."am i taking up her time, am i a burden?" i think that all the time. i still keep in touch but not as often as before......it does feel like i am a burden. you shoudl write her a letter then definately, after your descripton of her i dont think she will be scared off i think quite the opposite. i guess we are both very lucky. good luck xxx

Re: When words can't explain it all
Posted by She on Mon Apr 15 18:09:32 2002 (#1948)

Wow sh seams lovley i think you should write what you wrote to us its lovley.
Loads a love
She

Hi guys Im back..
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Mon Apr 15 15:12:23 2002 (#1935)

Hi guys,
I know I havent been here in months, but I just thought Id drop by to see how everyone was doing, Ive been ok recently, trying to get back on track with my life, still on the ritalin and the prozac, but settling down a little now.
Hope to hear from you all soon, Ive missed your friendship - (that goes to everyone)
Love Roses and Empathy.
CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs

Re: Hi guys Im back..
Posted by eleanor on Mon Apr 15 15:16:16 2002 (#1936)

hey! It's good to hear from you!! You were on the other site a few times weren't you? I remember. Hope you're doing ok!! Love always, el x x

Re: Hi guys Im back..
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Mon Apr 15 15:26:03 2002 (#1938)

hey! yeh I was on the other board for a while, then I started using this one, but I havent had much time for the internet these days so I kinda lost contact

Re: Hi guys Im back..
Posted by eleanor on Mon Apr 15 15:34:07 2002 (#1940)

well it's good that you're back now, even if it's just for a while!!!! x x

Re: Hi guys Im back..
Posted by stranger in the night on Mon Apr 15 16:07:48 2002 (#1943)

hello crimson tears! i think i have spoken to you before on the old board? as scared aka donna i think? i havent been cutting as much as before but i still feel shit. anyways its nice to hear from you. i hope you come back soon xxx

Re: Hi guys Im back..
Posted by She on Mon Apr 15 18:08:27 2002 (#1947)

Hiya
Its lovley to hear from you xxxx.I can remember you from the old board .
Loads a love
She

Re: Hi guys Im back..
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Tue Apr 16 08:07:26 2002 (#1956)

thanks guys, im not cutting as much anymore either which is pretty kool :-)
Does anyone know when Rhonda is about?

Re: Hi guys Im back..
Posted by eleanor on Tue Apr 16 23:48:19 2002 (#1982)

That's great! rhonda's around quite a lot so if you write her a post then she's sure to read it. love always x x x

lost my way in a one way street
Posted by eleanor on Mon Apr 15 15:32:56 2002 (#1939)

I feel weird at the moment. i want so much to make something of myself, to help other people and to be loved but it seems like the things that so many people take for granted will never come to me. I truly despise myself. I can't help it. I have got nothing to give to the world so how can I expect anything in return? The only thing that I have got to give is my love but nobody wants that. I don't see how I can carry on like this. I hurt so much all the time and it seems like the only thing I live for is to cut out the pain. It's like I've lost my way in a one way street. I don't know what to do.................

Re: lost my way in a one way street
Posted by stranger in the night on Mon Apr 15 16:10:39 2002 (#1944)

you have so much tio give to people eleanor. i love you, i think you are great and you have helped me so much with your kind hearted understanding attitude and opinions which is probably why im still here today. you are a wonderfull person eleanor so dont ever think that you serve no purpose in life because you do....you help me! and everyone else on this board and i just wish that i could do the same for you someday. take care and keep fighting love peace etc etc donna xxx

Re: lost my way in a one way street
Posted by She on Mon Apr 15 18:15:24 2002 (#1949)

Hello My Pola Queen
Ohhhh sweete pie
You couldnt imagen how much i love you i love you more then the world.Youve helped me soooooooo much your like my hero the amount of times you have saved my life is ridiculas its amazing girl and i know you have helped loads of others on this board and the other board to. Look forward to your book opening party and our little igloo with a champain filled pool and loads of pen guoins and a see through poal bear.We can sit on our purple chair and drink hot coco.
I love you loads n loads
She

Re: lost my way in a one way street
Posted by liverpoolfc on Mon Apr 15 23:41:11 2002 (#1954)

I feel the same way. I have all these dreams that I know will never come true and all I need in life is love. I have all kinds of love to give but have nobody to give it to and the moment somebody needs love, it's like it has been locked up in me for so long that it can't come out.

space!
Posted by stranger in the night on Mon Apr 15 17:32:32 2002 (#1945)

i want some space from my bloody family but they wont give it to me!!!!!!!!!! shit its driving me crazy...they refuse to leave me on my own...this place is my only refuge! aarrggh

Re: space!
Posted by She on Mon Apr 15 18:18:00 2002 (#1950)

Yeah i know how you feel about this place it should be given an award an a lil ceromany to.It is so helpfull.Do you think your familly would lay off i little if you told them how you feel?
Tell them ill beat themn up if they dont:oP.
Love you loads n loads
She

Re: space!
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Tue Apr 16 08:25:07 2002 (#1959)

Grrr family eh?? My Mom is just the same, if Im upset about something, and she wants to know what it is, she wont fuck off and nags and nags and nags, it pisses me off SO much, I'll tell her that I dont want to talk about it, and she wont back off so I end up rowing with her, its pathetic, but she doesnt understand GRRRRRRRRRRR

hypnotherapy
Posted by Broken Girl on Mon Apr 15 21:23:00 2002 (#1951)

Hi
Just come back from a session with my therapist, she wants me to go in for hypnotherapy, what do you guys think? It's to help with my insomnia.
I feel like this constant anger is ageing me and I always feel tired no matter how much sleep I get, it always goes in the same f-cking cycle; I stop sleeping properly, I start to ache all over all the time and get really worn down, I get ill. Had a panic attack yesterday, first one for a year. This is really bad news. I feel so tired and jaded, I'm only 14 for gods sake, what have I done to feel this shit?
Ella x
PS sorry for this rambling self pitying whinge

Re: hypnotherapy
Posted by eleanor on Mon Apr 15 22:13:14 2002 (#1952)

hey sweetie. If you think that hypnotherapy might work then go for it, that sort of thing works for some people and anythings worth a try. It can't hurt anyway can it? I know exactly how you feel. Sometimes I can go for months without more than 2 hours sleep per night and I'm so tired that it hurts but nothing will make me sleep. Then I'll go for maybe a week when all I do is sleep 24 hours a day and the more I sleep the worse I feel. It's like a stupid vicious cycle. I think that if your therapist suggested it then you should try it. If it works it'll be worth it won't it? Love always, el x x

Re: hypnotherapy
Posted by She on Mon Apr 15 22:59:27 2002 (#1953)

Hiya
Ohh im so sorry you feel like this.
(((((((((((((((((huge hugzz))))))))))))))))))
My mother is a witch doctor/spirtuallist thing and she has helped loads of people around us through hypnotheripy and they all say its greate i whish she would notice what im going through and help me to .
But i have had hypnotheripy with a herbalist i know and it was amazing .Go for it .I think i hit my worst stages when i was around 14 to i think its when things start to get avalibal to you .
Loads an loads of love
Please e mail me if you would like to talk
She

Re: hypnotherapy
Posted by stranger in the night on Tue Apr 16 08:14:10 2002 (#1958)

hiya erm yeah if you wanna go for it then do it but make sure your therapist tells you everything. hypnotherapy can be harmfull for some people in the long run which is why i dont agree with it personally. its not as safe as some make it out to be. but go for it if you really wanna coz it mite help you......i just thort id let you know how i feel bout it. good luck xxx

Re: hypnotherapy
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Tue Apr 16 08:13:26 2002 (#1957)

Ella,
I know exactly how you feel, I am only 15, and when I was 14 I was just like you described in your post, worn down, tired, ill, insomatic, suicidal..
Obviously I dont know anything of your background or why it is you are feeling like this, or what is making you depressed, so what I will say is this, stay stong honey, I was there, I pulled through and now I want to help others, although I am still pretty shit in some ways, I always remember, there are people worse off than myself and those people are going through what I went through, therefore I will offer every inch of my support and advice to them when ever it is needed.
You arent self pitying and whinging, its ok to open up to people, dont be scared to do that, no one is going to turn you away here.
If you want to talk properly, please mail me, my email address is
'Wastedperfectio n@hotmail.com'
Take care Ella,
Love Roses and Empathy
CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs

Bordom and Lonliness go hand in hand...
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Tue Apr 16 08:31:35 2002 (#1960)

Hi Guys
Im so bored its killing me, I have nothing what so ever to do, Im tempted to go and get pissed but that would be terrible, its only 7:23am.
My boyfriends gone to work, so Im lonely, home all alone, I hate being on my own, when I left the board it was because he was with me 24/7.. but now he is working again and so he's not here all the time for me, Ive found myself despiratly searching for something to do, but can't find anything that will keep me occupied, I have ADHD, so my attention span is terrible.
Oh fuck Im slowly dropping down to the old me, bored, depressed, lonely, fuck fuck fuck and there was me thinking I was out of that stage, Id even started eating properly for christs sake.
I know it sounds kinda pathetic that I need someone here with me all the time, but I guess thats just me, Im insecure I know but I cant help it, I worry about him when he's at work and worry about what he's doing, I know he has cheated on his ex's and lied to me before, Im so scared that he will do the same to me, he knows that I dont trust him, all of his work mates are female, I get so paranoid, I cant help it, but I have the reason to be protective he has given me the bastardness evidence to believe that he has the abilitiy to be unfaithful, Im sorry I know Im ranting, he's just left and thats my imediate feelings.
Im sorry
Love Roses and Empathy
CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs

Re: Bordom and Lonliness go hand in hand...
Posted by eleanor on Tue Apr 16 14:09:39 2002 (#1963)

hey sweetie. Don't worry about ranting or whatever, it's what we're here for. I know what you mean, I'm so insecure and I hate being on my own. It's worse when I'm bored cause I cut more, which is probably why I cut so much at night when I can't sleep. Anyway, I'm going off the subject now. I can't say anything about your boyfriend as I've never been in a relationship, but try not to worry too much. If you wanna talk, rant, rave or just get anything off your chest you can email me. Love always, el x x

Re: Bordom and Lonliness go hand in hand...
Posted by She on Tue Apr 16 19:42:09 2002 (#1969)

Hello
Yeah im pritty insucrue i guess.I hate being bored i cut bad then.
Im sorry you are one your own at the moment but im here for you if you every wanna talk.
Loads of love n hugs
She

Re: Bordom and Lonliness go hand in hand...
Posted by Erryn on Wed Apr 17 02:29:12 2002 (#1988)

hey i ly it is i live alone with my kids although i work its like i dont get any adult time anyways you always have to trust the one you love until proven otherwise just be yourself and love him as much as you can your not boring and depressed to me becuz your just like me!!!! take care xxxErryn

for *me*
Posted by jue on Tue Apr 16 10:03:30 2002 (#1961)

*me*

hey i just read your last post....i check out this board every once in awhile still....and i am worried about you....i know things really really suck sometimes....i know how it feels to be
so desperate and i know sometimes things seem like they will never ever ever ever ever get better.......BUT i believe deep deep within me that things will improve....i know this because they have for me....please please believe that they will for you too...

i don't know anything about your situation but i do know that you are a good person and that you don't deserve the sorrow that you have feel...i also believe though that in order to get past the sorrow that we have to accept what we can not change and try slowly to change what we can....because there are some things that we can change....i know sometimes it feels like an eternity to change even the slightest thing.....but the peace that comes from knowing you did it is so unexplainably wonderful.

i don't mean to lecture hon...or be rude or anything i just want to somehow give you maybe a sliver of hope....i believe deep within that there is hope for us all....

*hugs*
julie

Crimson Tears
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Tue Apr 16 10:50:30 2002 (#1962)

Pushing deeper into my skin,
As I watch my tears flow.
Weeping crimson from my veins,
Why?- You'll never know.
Glistening under the candle-light,
My blade seems like my saviour.
She has the power to take away pain,
Does this justify my behaviour?
Trickling down my thoughts dissapear,
The pain has gone away.
I sleep, little satisfaction,
It will return tomorrow day.

CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs

Re: Crimson Tears
Posted by stranger in the night on Tue Apr 16 14:43:40 2002 (#1964)

that was great xxx

Re: Crimson Tears
Posted by She on Tue Apr 16 20:02:50 2002 (#1971)

That is amazing .I like irt loads
Love ]She

Re: Crimson Tears
Posted by eleanor on Tue Apr 16 23:46:00 2002 (#1981)

I can relate to that so much. Thank you for what you wrote before. you're right, honesty is always best and it helps. Love always. x x x x

Re: Crimson Tears
Posted by Erryn on Wed Apr 17 02:26:06 2002 (#1987)

hey thats awesome keep writing and take care xxErryn

can't fight it
Posted by eleanor on Tue Apr 16 16:02:57 2002 (#1965)

Oh god, I thought I was doing so well and now I'm falling apart. I can't fight this feeling of lonliness and hatred towards myself anymore. I'm a fat, repulsive lump with no purpose. Lets face it, the whole world would be better off without me. What's the point in fighting any more? I might as well face the inevitable. I'd be better off dead

Re: can't fight it
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Tue Apr 16 16:10:47 2002 (#1966)

awww sweetie, we are all as lonley as each other in this pathetic world I think, no one ever seems to be happy, and when they are happy, that happiness always fades away to nothingness again..The truth is, I dont think anyone can fight it, if anyone thinks they can they are just kidding themselves.. I duno, I cant help, so I'll just give you my honest opinion, honesty means more than anything else I hope.
I wish the best for you..
Love Roses and Empathy
CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs

Re: can't fight it
Posted by stranger in the night on Tue Apr 16 16:39:27 2002 (#1967)

no eleanor! i really care about you and it hurts so much to hear you say those things. ou are a lovely person. oyu are not repulsive and you have as much right as any one to be alive. you would not be better off dead! you can fight tese feelings eleanor honestly you can. we al feel like this from time to time. i understand how you feel, ive felt that bad loads so that makes me a hypocrit here i guess...but its only coz i care. you are fantastic elanor and dont let anyone tell you different. love you so much donna xxx

p.s. email me if you wanna chat. you know im here for you xx

Re: can't fight it
Posted by She on Tue Apr 16 19:59:55 2002 (#1970)

Hiya sweetie
(((((((((((((((((hugzzzzzz)) ))))))))))))))))
hello princess.My world would not be worth living without you girl.You have so so much to give and shit we gotta read your book girl its amazzing im dyeing to know whats gonna happens.Then when you get all the money from that and i have my money from my new job(im going for it)we can be the riches escimos to hav ever lived and we can be happy like the people in the picture.
Please please wirt to me and let me know how you are im scared your not ok .
I love you my Pola Queene
She~she

Re: can't fight it
Posted by Erryn on Wed Apr 17 02:25:17 2002 (#1986)

hey girl the people on here need you i need you just hang in there and take care im here for ya xxxErryn

To She
Posted by stranger in the night on Tue Apr 16 17:00:43 2002 (#1968)

hiya hun just a quick post to say......

**************HUGZ***** *************

i hope your first day back went as well as it possibly could have xxx

Re: To She
Posted by She on Tue Apr 16 20:14:00 2002 (#1972)

:o)

Thank you !!!!!
It was sort of ok in a strange way.
((((((((((((((((((huge hugzzzzz)))))))))))))))))
hopen every things ok with your pearents.Ill kick then really hard if it isnt .
I love you loads n loads
She~berry

Re: To She
Posted by eleanor on Tue Apr 16 23:55:08 2002 (#1984)

and then I'll bite them! We're gonna miss you sweetie! ((((((((HUGGGGGGE HUGS!)))))))))
P.s She, thank you so much for before. I don't know what I'd do without you!! x x x

im goin to miss you so much
Posted by stranger in the night on Tue Apr 16 20:45:47 2002 (#1973)

tonight will probably be the last time im on line for a very long time. i had a showdown wiv my mum and dad and things got out of control. there gunna ban me from the internet. the only time id b able to cum on is if i sneak round to my friends house which would prob b once a week. im really upset, i need you guys, it also helps to know how oyur all doing. im really upset i cant believe this is hapening. im crying so bad here im scared. if i never do get online for whateva reasons....mum may not let me out or summet sos i cunt go on line at my friends i dont know? i hope you all is ok n i hope you all have a happy ending. i will miss all of you so much. thankyou so much for everything you have all done for me. i hate to say this but i really think that tonight is the night for saying good byes. i promise i will try my best to get here tho. i need to know how everyone that ive got to know so well is coping. im sorry im babbling now but this has left me traumatised. bye xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Re: im goin to miss you so much
Posted by eleanor on Tue Apr 16 21:04:03 2002 (#1974)

oh sweetheart, I'm gonna miss you so much. I can't believe this is happening. You were there right from the first day I started on here, we started together, it's gonna be so weird without you. I hope you have a happy ending. you deserve it so much. I love you hun. take good care of yourself. "love n stuff" el x x x x x x x x x x x x

Re: im goin to miss you so much
Posted by She on Tue Apr 16 21:24:46 2002 (#1975)

Ohh my god
Shit girl im gonna miss you so much you couldnt belive it .I love you girl you were there for me when i really needed you .Please try to stay in touch with us .But if you cant go far in life yeah dont give up and make me proud girl .
I love you and i always will.
She

Re: im goin to miss you so much
Posted by Erryn on Wed Apr 17 02:22:58 2002 (#1985)

hey girl thanks for everything and good luck with the parents thats why im glad i live alone with my kids take care xxxxErryn

Re: im goin to miss you so much
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Wed Apr 17 10:27:29 2002 (#1991)

Hey angel
I dont know you all that well, but Im hoping things turn out well for you, either on the board or outside of the board.. infact bothways.. if you cant get on anymore I hope you are okay without us on here, wishing for the best
-Take care
Love Roses and Empathy
CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs

The way things are
Posted by Broken Girl on Tue Apr 16 21:33:31 2002 (#1976)

I'm drifting through the house/ Avoiding the phone/ Think of people I can't ring/ As I listen to the tone/ I expect too much I guess/ They never give me love/ Down goes the receiver/ Its time to rise above//
I look into your eyes/ You don't know the real me/ Too many lives to live/ To many different people to be/ But that's mortality I guess/ That's the way things are/ Life is just a dead mans queue/ Time spent wishing on a star

Re: The way things are
Posted by She on Tue Apr 16 22:03:02 2002 (#1977)

Wow
Shit girl that is the most amaszing pice of poetry i have ever read in my lifre irs amazing.
I cant totaly feel that
Loads of love
She

Re: The way things are
Posted by eleanor on Tue Apr 16 23:33:01 2002 (#1979)

that was amazing. It's so true. I love ya girl! El x x x x

Re: The way things are
Posted by Jade on Wed Apr 17 08:20:38 2002 (#1989)

wow.

I'm not sure what else I can say. I really liked it. Take care.

Re: The way things are
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Wed Apr 17 10:29:06 2002 (#1992)

I liked that alot, it touched me, keep writting
Love Roses and Empathy
CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs

it just gets worse!!!:(
Posted by Donna on Tue Apr 16 22:35:37 2002 (#1978)

HEY GUYS, i hope you're all doing ok!! i was for a bit but im not now!! i had an appointment with my shrink today.....i didnt go.....i wanted to i really did but i knew it would be the same story...i wud sit in silence for the whole time!! well ,not the whole time but for a lot of it!!! since i started going, its been as though ive had no feelings at all...i havent cried in ages and i sit in daze for most of the time..with complete emptiness....i feel nothing!! its worse than feeling pain..it really is! at least i used to feel happy and feel sad but now i feel nothing and it only started from i went to counselling!!!! i really dunno wot to do!ive given up..yet again! as madonna said.....life is a mystery,everyone must stand alone! luv u guys, donna

Re: it just gets worse!!!:(
Posted by eleanor on Tue Apr 16 23:36:03 2002 (#1980)

You'll never be alone, you always have us! I know what that's like. You just feel numb, like someone could hit you over the head with a mallet and you wouldn't feel a thing. It sucks but hopefully it gets better. They are really low times but everyone has their ups and downs. keep fighting girl, I love ya! el x x x x

Re: it just gets worse!!!:(
Posted by Jade on Wed Apr 17 08:26:27 2002 (#1990)

Hey, I know how you feel, and it really is worse then pain, but lucky it's not as desperate. I was wondering if maybe you were on meds, and if they started around the time you went into therapy. That would make a lot of sense, but you probably would have mentioned it. I hope you can work it out, don't give up. ~Jade

Re: it just gets worse!!!:(
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Wed Apr 17 10:34:18 2002 (#1993)

Hiya princess
I have had a very rough background, during my life my life I have been through a hell of alot, Im only 15 now, I wont go into detail, but I have had many councellors, all of which I have hated, and as you said you do, I have sat there in silence, just wanting to get away from them, until I found one that I could talk to, I dont know why I could talk to her, maybe its because before I overdosed, I wouldnt admit that I had a problem, although I felt like shit and had eating dissorders and was mentally unbalanced,I didnt want to admit that to myself, so I refused to talk, so really, what Im trying to say is, that it took me near death to realise that yeah, I have a problem, I need help, and for the first time ever, I spoke to a councellor properly, and I felt a little better, I opened up to her. I think you should talk to your councellor, dont let your problems get on top of you like I did.
Take care darling, and I hope things work out.
Love Roses and Empathy
CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs

Re: it just gets worse!!!:(
Posted by She on Wed Apr 17 18:33:54 2002 (#2001)

Hiya
Yeah i know how you feel .I have never told anything to my phsrink of n e use to me cause im to scared to .I usually just sit there thinking about what i would love to tell them so they could make it better.But there only vocabrelly i have is yes no kinda hurmm.
Loads a love n hugs
She

Re: it just gets worse!!!:(
Posted by Broken Girl on Wed Apr 17 19:49:44 2002 (#2006)

Know how you feel dahling, I have lost all emotion myself!
Love ya
Ella x

Got to go
Posted by gnimia on Wed Apr 17 11:39:09 2002 (#1994)

Found out on Monday that my ex remembers the name of this site. and may7 well be checking up on my posts not that there are many. anyway i dont want him to know whats going on so im not going to post here any more. if he does read this i want him to know that he has now totally erased the last possible outlet i had for my anger frustration and all the rest of it. so well done, thanks.

for the rest of you, you are welcome to email me etc if you think i can help with anything. its unlikely tho.
take care be stronger.

Re: Got to go
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Wed Apr 17 12:09:56 2002 (#1995)

I hope things work out hun, it was really nasty of your ex to check up on you, take care
Love Roses and Empathy
CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs

Re: Got to go
Posted by eleanor on Wed Apr 17 17:30:05 2002 (#1999)

That's awful! I'm so sorry. I hope everything works out for you. Take care. Love always, el x x x

Re: Got to go
Posted by She on Wed Apr 17 18:36:05 2002 (#2002)

What a stupid dick .
Im really sorry you have to go i never really talked to you but you seam really nice.
E mail me if you ever want to .
Loads of love
She

Re: Got to go
Posted by Erryn on Wed Apr 17 23:43:16 2002 (#2011)

good luckxxxxErryn

Jealous of you
Posted by Maggie on Wed Apr 17 12:46:31 2002 (#1996)

I'm jealous of all of you who have the guts to cut as much as they feel like.
All my scars are on my ankles or hips, nobody ever sees them and that's my style.
But I would really like to cut my arms... I'd like to be able to look at my scars more often, but of course I am too afraid of what others would think.
You all have so much courage to express your pain to the world. I have justified Self Injury to myself, and accept that it's part of my life, but I must be ashamed if I don't like others to see it.

Smetimes I would like to take a blade and make slices down my cheeks, but that will never happen. I am too chicken shit.

I would like to make deep gashes, I would like to be easily triggered, I wish SI still controlled my life... at least it was always there for me.

Ok, this is crap.
Bye.

Re: Jealous of you
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Wed Apr 17 12:50:37 2002 (#1997)

Hi Maggie
I just read your post and was horrified that you actually want to see your scars, I wish I was like you, and only did little cuts in descreet places, but I dont, I like to see the blood trickle down my arms and my stomach.. and then they scar, and I wish they werent there, I hate the comments people make about them, I hate meeting new people, the imediate question is "what you done to your arm??" I dont like having to explain that I SI, its embarrassing, I cant even talk to my boyfriends parents properly in fear that they might see my cuts and hate me for it, or think Im wierd, I dont want to embarress my boyfriend.
I wish I could cut like you, please dont wish for bigger scars, I dont want the scars, they just remind me of my pain and anger..
Take care
Love Roses and Empathy
CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs

Re: Jealous of you
Posted by Broken Girl on Wed Apr 17 13:22:06 2002 (#1998)

Hi
Theres nothing to be jealous of. I cut small deep cuts and I dont cut my arms, I cut my legs where no one can see, I hate my scars so much. I used to cut my wrist and cover it with braclets but then my mum saw, that was an experience I never want to repeat, my whole life revolves around hiding what I do. So you arent alone, Im too scared of poeples reactions to ever show anyone or let them see.
Ella x

Re: Jealous of you
Posted by eleanor on Wed Apr 17 17:33:07 2002 (#2000)

I wish I only cut in hidden, discreet places. I despise my scars and I despise the way people look at me when they see them but I can't help it. I would do anything to be like you. Please don't wish for that. It's terrible and it just causes more pain. Take care of yourself, love always, el x x x

Re: Jealous of you
Posted by She on Wed Apr 17 18:40:13 2002 (#2003)

God dont be jelouse of me.I know what you meat i used to cut my arms then ther were seam so i have to cut my stomach ankles feet .
Loadsa of love
She~berry

Re: Jealous of you
Posted by Erryn on Wed Apr 17 23:40:53 2002 (#2010)

i too am kinda ashamed of my arms i have scars that were so deep and wide that they are still gaping the one had to have 136 stitches it went from my wrist to my elbow. i dont like the looks i get or the questions but its me and this what i like to do but i do regret it alot but it feels good so where does it stop??? sorry i was rambling take carexxxErryn

Re: Jealous of you
Posted by liverpoolfc on Fri Apr 19 00:25:20 2002 (#2023)

I think your extremely lucky to have your scars hidden from everybody. When I first started cutting, I started on my face. Next I went to my arms, and this is where it stays. My scars are there for everybody to stare at and wonder.

Re: Jealous of you
Posted by Jade on Fri Apr 19 09:21:47 2002 (#2031)

Sweetheart don't ever wish that you cut worse then you do, it's great that you don't need more yet to get you by. I cut on my wrists and got some nasty scars. I can't let anyone see. It's not just that I'm afraid of their reaction, it's that I'm not comfortable showing people that much of me. It symbolizes so much, good and bad, and it's just so personal. Three or four years ago I thought that I must be a wuss for not cutting so deep, or feeling bad for being ashamed of them sometimes, but looking back I wish that I would have stopped when it was still an option. My scars are forever, and they will affect so much in my life, relationships, jobs, even casual aquaintances. You're right that the people on this board have a lot of courage, not because they cut deep, or on their arms, but because they are surviving with SI and dealing with everyone's bullshit and coping with all the bad things that none of them deserve. I hope that you have the strength and the COURAGE to keep your cutting under control, it already shows a lot that you tried to find another way to deal rather than giving up. I hope that you are proud of how far you made it. If you ever need anything, ANYTHING. I'll be here for you. And it's very rare for me to shove overly positive bullshit down anyone's throat, so don't worry about me not understanding, I know what you're going through as well as anyone can. Keep posting. ~Jade

Re: Jealous of you
Posted by KAT on Sun Apr 21 05:41:09 2002 (#2103)

this saddnes me so much.
I dunno...I shouldnt be responding, ah......
take care Maggie

she
Posted by eleanor on Wed Apr 17 19:10:40 2002 (#2004)

Sweetheart, nothing you could do would ever make me disappointed in you. Worried maybe, but never disappointed. Just tell me what it is ok baba? It'll be good for you to talk it over whatever it is. WRITE TO ME!!!! I love you honey. x x x

Re: she
Posted by She on Wed Apr 17 20:23:46 2002 (#2007)

Hello my queene.
God im sorry please dont worry about me yeah you have anought to worry about yourself.
(((((((((((hug))))))))))))))
Im in a bit of a mess at the moment and i have to go out to sort out my brain so im gonna go away for the night .I have done something really dull but please dont worry about me im gonna sort it out .I really hope you wont be to dissapointed ill tell you wats gone on as soon as possible but im not 100% sure about whats happen myself.
Ok gotta go
I love you
she

Please
Posted by Broken Girl on Wed Apr 17 19:47:35 2002 (#2005)

Please take the sadness from my eyes/ Too often have they cried/ The others think its there for good/ So they've never really tried// Please take the hatred from me/ Take the anger from my soul/ Please fill me with love/ Fill up this gaping hole//
I really need your love/ I really need a friend/ Don't leave like all the rest/ Please don't follow that trend// Please stay with me here/ Please stay for the night/ Tell it will be just fine/ Tell me it will be alright.

Re: Please
Posted by eleanor on Wed Apr 17 20:33:13 2002 (#2008)

I wish somebody would tell me it'll all be alright. That was lovely. x x x

Re: Please
Posted by Erryn on Wed Apr 17 23:36:27 2002 (#2009)

hey that was awesome i wish to someone would tell me its okay take care xxxErryn

Re: Please
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Thu Apr 18 11:44:34 2002 (#2012)

awww that was beautiful.. i love it
Love Roses and Empathy
CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs

Re: Please
Posted by Linda on Thu Apr 18 20:22:41 2002 (#2014)

Broken Girl with eyes so red,/
Listen to something that needs to be said,/
The sadness and tears you need not bear,/
There is One who cares and never will scare.//

His name is Jesus and He died for your sins,/
He carried your burden and longs to come in-/
To your heart so lonely and filled with care,/
He’ll give you real peace and love He will share.//

So if you need something to settle your strife,/
Of brokeness, confusion and unfulfilled life,/
Look to Him in sincerity and child-like faith,/
His will is for you to accept His free grace.//

Sure wish I had time to be on here more but have gotten too busy these days. When I do get to come here I am hurt once again at the despair and lack of answers there seems to be for you all. Most of you new people do not know me but I have been coming to Psyke for over 2 years now as a friend of cutters. My answer to it all is very simplistic. Some are triggered by my answers and I feel really bad about that but truth is always going to stir Satanic forces. I believe that Jesus is your answer. If you will give up control of your life to the One who understands, allow Him to cleanse your heart of sin(yes, I believe we are all sinners, defined as one who does not measure up to God’s standards nor can we in ourselves), He will make you a new creation with new desires and a new hope for living. Don’t have time to elaborate but welcome anyone to email me if you would like. Love to you all!

Re: Please
Posted by Broken Girl on Thu Apr 18 20:52:47 2002 (#2016)

Hi
Thanks for the comments, as for that poem that you wrote Linda, I think it is great. I wish I could have faith like that. But I know this sounds kind of stupid, but I feel let down by God, I feel so alone, Maybe one day some kind of faith will return to be but thanks anyway.
Ella x

Re: Please
Posted by Linda on Thu Apr 18 21:53:42 2002 (#2021)

Ella, Do you really want faith.....then "faith cometh by hearing and hearing by the word of God." That is a direct quote from the Bible. If you really want faith then read His word. Open yourself up to testing it.
I'm sorry you feel let down by God. I assure you that He has provided for your eternal salvation...you have no need of disappointment.

Dying
Posted by eleanor on Thu Apr 18 18:23:35 2002 (#2013)

Do you know how it feels to be dying inside while others see only your smile?
Do you know how it feels to have a broken heart yet have to run that extra mile?
Do you know what it's like to look in a mirror and not recognise your own face?
Do you know what it's like to be looked at as though your whole life is just such a disgrace?
Do you know what it's like to hide your true self so noone else can see?
If you know what it's like to wish you were dead then you know what it's like to be me.

Ok maybe it's not my best poem ever but my brain is as shit as my life at the moment. Sorry

Re: Dying
Posted by She on Thu Apr 18 21:11:43 2002 (#2018)

wow bird i love it its amazing.I can totaly understand that.
I allways love you
She

Re: Dying
Posted by Erryn on Fri Apr 19 03:21:33 2002 (#2029)

i love it keep it up okay take care xxxErryn

Re: Dying
Posted by liverpoolfc on Fri Apr 19 03:49:39 2002 (#2030)

I think this is great work. It is short and to the point and very easy to understand.

Re: Dying
Posted by Jade on Fri Apr 19 09:28:06 2002 (#2032)

I've known for far too long
I like it, I always appreciate you all shareing poems, they sometimes make me think that other people are feeling the way that I do. ~Jade

Re: Dying
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Fri Apr 19 09:31:44 2002 (#2033)

kool poem, its nice..
Love Roses and Empathy
CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs

to my mum
Posted by stranger in the night on Thu Apr 18 20:42:51 2002 (#2015)

i know that any time tonight or tomorrow you are pathetically going to come on this site and check just to make sure i havent posted here...well ive got news for you mum...im 17 years old (remember?) and you cannot keep tabs on my every move. oyu cannot make me stay in the house and you cannot dictate what i do with my time. ok, so maybe when i was 15 then yes you had that right(however wrong it may be) but im 17 and you are driving me to do things i dont want to do. oyu are driving me to cut more than i ever have done. you are driving me to feel sooo bad about myself that i feel i cant go on. i only wish you would try to understand me mum. read some of the posts on here and see for yourself. i am suffering so baly inside and i need your support and understanding, not lectures and constant grief. i need you to give me some space from time to time insted of wrapping me up in cotton wool. you are driving me insane. is that what you want? i love you so much mum i really do but you are making me hate you. please please try to understand why i come here, please help me instead of arguing with me. i know that you are going to go absolutely crazy with me for posting here and saying this so publically but it was my last hope. i hope that this has worked because if it hasnt then im afraid thats it. i couldnt care less because i do have friends with computers and i can always go to a cyber cafe or something. so what im saying is that i will come here whether you like it or not, i would rahter come here with your approval mum. i love you so much yet i hate you just as much. why cant you see how much you are hurting me?

Re: to Donna's mum
Posted by eleanor on Thu Apr 18 21:10:24 2002 (#2017)

hey. I know I probably have no right to say this but donna really needs your support right now. Donna and I came onto this site at about the same time and we have become really good friends in the process. She's been there for me when I needed her and I hope I've done the same for her. What I'm trying to say is that we help each other here. The people on this board (including donna) have helped me through so many bad times, I probably wouldn't be here without them. Please try to understand that donna needs this board as much as we need her help and support. We understand what she's going through, and even a little of how you feel as my mum's in the same boat, but you have to help and not hinder donna's progress. I'm sorry if I'm out of line here but I think you needed to know this. Thank you for reading this and I hope you manage to sort things out. Love eleanor x

Re: to Donna's mum
Posted by She on Thu Apr 18 21:14:49 2002 (#2019)

Please dont stop donna coming on here .I love her so so much .Im not sure if you understand how much this board means to us if you havent been involved in it but i care so much about Donna in it would be so sad if she couldnt cone on here any more .
We love her dont stop her staying
She

Re: to Donna's mum
Posted by Erryn on Fri Apr 19 03:18:33 2002 (#2028)

hi i am here to ask you to please let donna keep coming on here she helps so many of us and we love her. we are not all young and naive in fact im 26 and a mother of two and i would be happy if my daughter had support other than my own. your daughter needs your support and help so please listen to her and let her be apart of this board thank you Erryn

Re: to Donna's mum
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Fri Apr 19 09:37:37 2002 (#2035)

I have been on this board for a long long time, longer, although I wasnt here when Donna first started posting, I came back to find a few new members, Donna being one of them, I have read and replied to most of her posts, and I can see that this girl does need your help and support, and also the help and support of friends, this board is not a bad thing, it is an escape route for people to let out their emotions, dont take that away from your daughter, she needs the people here as much as we need her, let her stay, we understand her where as other people may not, and like wise on her part, Donna is a great girl, we all love her.
Thanks
Love Roses and Empathy
CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs

Re: to Donna's mum
Posted by Jade on Fri Apr 19 09:36:32 2002 (#2034)

This message board is a healthy place for her and she is loved here. No one is encouraging her to cut by doing it themselves, we want her to have everything that she wants in life. I've never talked to her directly, but I've read lots of her posts and I want you to know that you have a wonderful daughter and we want the best for her just like you do. I hope that you understand how important this support is, knowing that people understand how you feel can save someones life. Please open your mind and your heart. Respectfully, Jade

Sorry
Posted by She on Thu Apr 18 21:31:50 2002 (#2020)

Hiya
Ok so its a fact i am THE dullest most perfetic looser in the land and im really sorry about what im gonna tell you because i feel ive let you down and the last people i would want to dissapoint in the word is you guys.
Well ok yesterday i got to school and i really couldnt face it so i left in my free peroid and cut worse then i ever have befor i think.I was sitting outside my school and Trant ( the guy who raped me )was walking up the lane beside me .
I was feeling so shit that i really couldnt have given as fuck what he did to me but he sat next to me and started to talk to me .He was kinda saying that it really hurt him to see me in such a mess .And for a stupid while i belifed that i could really trust him and he was sorry for what i did .So i told him what id been doing and stuff and he was so nice he was saying how he totaly understood me and loved/cared for me I think i must of cryed for hours.

Well ok it didnt stay all nice for long . He took me back to his house and gave me loads of crack i cant belive i took it.I went soo long without anything and i took it straight from him.
I passed out and woke up with him on me .I was soo scared i cant belive it . God im shaking now writting this.
I hate him and i hate myself for falling for it .
I spent all night crying on a pavment somewhere thinking of you peeps was like the only reason i can home.
so here i am .In a bigger mess then ever.
I love you all and im soooo sorry.
She

Re: Sorry
Posted by Erryn on Fri Apr 19 03:12:05 2002 (#2027)

hey we all mess up sometimes just keep going dont think about it being a bad thing think of it as a learning experience okay keep in touch and take care xxxErryn

Re: Sorry
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Fri Apr 19 09:43:00 2002 (#2036)

Shit, thats terrible..
I really dont know what to say :o(
But I agree with Erryn, use this as a learning experience, this guy is a fucking arsehole, keep away from him and NEVER let him get that oppourtunity again..
I hope you are ok sweetheart..
Love Roses and Empathy
CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs

Re: Sorry
Posted by Jade on Fri Apr 19 09:51:19 2002 (#2038)

God, don't be sorry. It's not your fault it's his. He took advantage of you physically and mentally, he knew how upset you were, and being the creep that he is, manipulated it for himself. We all know what it is like to need someone to understand and to escape sometimes and I am so sorry that someone could possibly use that to get something out of it. You believed him because you needed someone to really care, and he was convincing, it's not your fault. I'm so sorry that this happened to you and don't feel bad about, learn from it. But don't think that no one can be trusted just be careful, there's lots of creeps out there, but there are also people who care about you. If you ever need someone come here. I don't know if this means ANYTHING to you, but if you ever need anyhing, just email me or something, I'll help anyway I can. I hope that you're doing better, if not, just tell us about it, talking about it will help. Try you're best and don't give up. Love, Jade

PS Stay away from crack, alright sweetie?!?

Re: Sorry
Posted by eleanor on Fri Apr 19 20:11:58 2002 (#2050)

BABA!!!!!! Oh sweetie, I'm gonna lock you up in that igloo so nothing bad can touch you again!! Seriously, if he comes near you again i'll cut his balls off and feed them to him whole. sorry, but he makes me so mad!! I love you princess, your my best friend. Just look after yourself and don't let him do it again ok?? I'll mail you soon hun. Love you sooooooooo much!!!! elle x x x

Re: Thanxxx
Posted by She on Sat Apr 20 16:12:21 2002 (#2082)

To every 1
Thany you so much for all your posts yeah it is a learning experiance.I gotta be so much more carefull.
Thanx loads n loads
She

Its about that guy HELP ME PLEASE
Posted by Robyn Girl on Thu Apr 18 23:03:16 2002 (#2022)

Hey guys its me again and i have somthing to tell u... for all of u who kno me u kno i've been in love with this kid david forever.. well my friend jess finally got me to give in about tellin him so i wrote him a 5 page letter tellin him that i'm sorry for all the shit i've put u thru and that i like you alot and yea i wasnt gonna give it to him after i wrote it and i put it in my bag.. well my friend jessica didnt believe me that i had wrote it and i showed it to her and shes like i'm gonna give it to him and i was like whatever and then i changed my mind and was like no nonononono and it was to late cause he had alreayd gotten it and just now he told me that he didnt like me....

DAVID: it was a nice letter
i say rarrr do u: :-)
DAVID: but...u already know that i dont feel the same way for u

yea now i'm so upset eventhoug i kno he didnt like me that way it still hurts so much!! ok well i'm gonna go please email me!! i need someone to talk to... my aim doesnt always work so email me and if i'm on i'll IM u aite thanks for listening

~robyn Girl

Re: Its about that guy HELP ME PLEASE
Posted by Erryn on Fri Apr 19 03:09:15 2002 (#2026)

hey dont sweat it okay take care xxxErryn

update
Posted by liverpoolfc on Fri Apr 19 00:31:52 2002 (#2024)

I don't want to say much because I don't want to seem like i'm bragging. I still haven't cut for about three weeks. I remember the night I decided I would stop i had a real long cry. It was the first time I had cried in years. This probably won't last too long though. I'm sure I'll be on here soon enough because I've started again.

Re: update
Posted by Erryn on Fri Apr 19 03:06:56 2002 (#2025)

congrats on the three weeks keep it up proud take care xxxErryn

Re: update
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Fri Apr 19 09:50:31 2002 (#2037)

well done, I also havent cut in ages, proud of you :o)
Love Roses and Empathy
CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs

Re: update
Posted by Jade on Fri Apr 19 09:53:48 2002 (#2039)

Good job, I'm happy for you,keep going~Jade

Re: update
Posted by eleanor on Fri Apr 19 20:13:49 2002 (#2051)

That's so great hun!! I'm sooooo proud of you!!! Love always, el x x x

Re: update
Posted by She on Sat Apr 20 00:00:13 2002 (#2068)

ay thats wonderfull girl keep it up im reallyt proud of you.
Loads a love
She

Jade...
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Fri Apr 19 09:59:00 2002 (#2040)

jade are you still around? I noticed you posting at the same time as me, was wondering if you wanted to chat...
Love Rose and Empathy
CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs

Re: Jade...
Posted by Jade on Fri Apr 19 10:03:24 2002 (#2041)

Yeah, I'm here, I just came back in I don't have im but I'd love to talk to you through email or the message board or something. ~Jade

Re: Jade...
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Fri Apr 19 10:08:15 2002 (#2042)

ellow Im still here!
yeh thats cool.. through here?

Re: Jade...
Posted by Jade on Fri Apr 19 10:14:42 2002 (#2043)

Yeah, I suppose, but I have to leave and reenter to read posts that people did since I first came in. Is it the same for you? Uh, I'm not really sure what to talk about. How are you? And I don't just mean that as small talk. ~ Jade

Oh, and I love your name, I wrote a poem titled Crimson Tears about a year after I first started

Re: Jade...
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Fri Apr 19 10:20:19 2002 (#2044)

just refresh the page using the refresh button at the top, I wrote a poem called crimson tears as well thats where my name came from hehe

Crimson Tears

pushing harder into my skin
I watch my tears flow
weeping crimson from my veins
why?- you'll never know
Glistening under the candle light
My blade seems like my saviour
She has the power to take away pain
Does that justify my behaviour?
Trickling down my thoughts dissapear
The pain has gone away
I sleep, little satisfaction
It will return tomorrow day

Re: Jade...
Posted by Jade on Fri Apr 19 10:25:52 2002 (#2045)

Hey, actually could we go to the SI chat at psyke.org, that might be quicker. ~ Jade

Re: Jade...
Posted by Jade on Fri Apr 19 10:38:34 2002 (#2046)

Hey, what just happened? It accidentally closed and then you were gone, sorry about that, I'm still there if you want to try again. ~ Jade

ABOUT DONNA
Posted by ¸.·*¨°·.¸ CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs ¸¸.·*¨°·.¸ on Fri Apr 19 12:49:29 2002 (#2047)

Hi guys,
Just to let you all know, I have been chatting with Donna today, and she is now blocked from the board, but I passed on all of your messeges to her, about her mother, and she is very grateful, she appreciates all the support and kindness you have shown her, she is touched by your posts.. anyhow, lets hope she is able to get back on soon and that her mother changes her mind for the best,
Love Roses and Empathy
CrïM§øÑ*TëÅrs

Re: ABOUT DONNA
Posted by Erryn on Fri Apr 19 17:52:39 2002 (#2048)

thanks for passing them on tell her if you can hi from me thanks again xxErryn

Re: ABOUT DONNA
Posted by Jade on Fri Apr 19 19:52:48 2002 (#2049)

Did Donna's mom read the responses we posted? It seems like she would understand a bit more. Well, I guess some people never change. Please tell Donna that she should try to log in at friend's house or the library, or school computers if she goes, wherever she can, or if she can go on when her mom's not home, maybe change her name so she wouldn't know that it was her and delete the computer history, I don't know, just brainstorming. I hope her mom comes around. ~Jade

Re: ABOUT DONNA
Posted by eleanor on Fri Apr 19 20:16:19 2002 (#2052)

Hey. tell her that I love her loads and I can't wait to hear from her. thanx! love always, elle x x x

Re: ABOUT DONNA
Posted by Broken Girl on Fri Apr 19 20:31:22 2002 (#2054)

Hi
Yeah, Ive been emailing her too, her mum still wont let her on but she wants to keep i touch with every one.
Love ella x

Re: ABOUT DONNA
Posted by She on Sat Apr 20 00:03:29 2002 (#2069)

Give here a huge hug from me and tell her to come back as soon as possible.
Loadsa love she