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Untitled © Katie And I tell myself it's helping, And I tell myself I'm doing the right thing, And I tell myself not to open up, Not to tell the real thing, But everyday someone new asks, And everyday they say can I see? I smile and just laugh it all off, But then I cough, And I choke on my tears, The angels above are trying to shine, I know I keep them on a tight line, Time rolls on by, All I can do is sigh, And I shrug it off, I shrug it off, I always shrug it off, And I tell myself it's helping, And I tell myself I 'm doing the right thing, And I tell myself not to open up, Not to tell the real thing, I hide in my cold hands, They hold together like lonely bands, My only friends, I don't want this brought to the end, All of their tears, Always screaming-they hurt my ears, My heart is untouched and bare, All I ever see is one long lifeless stare, And I try so hard not to end it, And I sometimes try to hold on-even if it is a little bit, All I am is fear, And I am always here, I never go away, But I don't ever stay, So if I seem lost, Just give me a tear and a toss, I'll fall and my skin will bleed, But that is all that I ever seem to need, A drop of red, Always helps clear up my head, You don't realize-you don't know, You'd never understand if I told you though, So sometimes I wonder why I even try, It's not enough to just cry, I need something much deeper, And I think this one is a definite keeper, And I tell myself it's helping, And I tell myself I'm doing the right thing, And I tell myself not to open up, Not to tell the real thing, Time has come-and it has gone, And this has been way too long, I think maybe it' time to wave good-bye, But before I go-I'll give it one more try, Oh hell-forget that, One last final sigh, The end is near, Can you feel it too my dear? And I tell myself it's helping, And I tell myself I'm doing the right thing, And I tell myself not to open up, Not to tell the real thing. Top of page Webmaster: wulff@ratatosk.net |